Question your Happiness November 8, 2009 Sunday

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Why don’t you care enough? Why do you care so much? Why are you jealous? Why are you so annoying? Why aren’t you smart?Why are you so emotional? Why are you so nosy? You are too apathetic. We can never work good together. Can you shut up! Leave me alone! Nevermind. Stop talking! You aren’t good enough. Why do you hate me? Do you wanna be my friend? I miss you! I hate you! EXCUSES! You hang out with girls too much. Why do you hang out with guys so much? Do you love me? Am I your friend? Are you looking out for me? You have to leave I am hanging out with someone else. He asked me first. I am sorry. I am a terrible friend. What is wrong with you? Why are you crying? I don’t even know you anymore. Can I trust you with everything? Why can’t you trust my word? Why didn’t you invite me? What happened to the summer? What are you doing? Can’t talk now hanging out with some friends. You are such a douchebag. Not now. I am busy. What do you want? What is the point of this conversations? It’s okay it’s only Michael.

After awhile it starts to build up and I can’t take it anymore. I am who I am. I make mistakes. I’m not perfect. I wanna be happy, but it seems like everyone is disappointed in me. Accept me.